Life has been kind of busy.... People keep saying that 2014 has been a great year, but what the hell have they been smoking? It hasn't been for me and a few people that I know. I just want to say tho, that if this year has been good for you then I'm glad *not sarcastic btw* I just had a lot of shit that had gone down in the past year. Hell in the begining of the year my dad fell down some stairs during a bad storm that we've had and of course my mom and brother can't handle those situations well so I talked to the receptionist while my brother was having a panic attack and my mom going outside to cover my dad with a blanket. Bless them both, but they REALLY can't handle those situations and yeah I get why tho. It would be hard if I was in their shoes to watch someone I know have that kind of accident. Of course I care about my families well being I just handle certain situations differently than they do and I kind of let everything sink in when it's been done and "over with." I mean I cried after wards believe it or not I can't handle that shit either but it isn't until the end that everything has happened. The same thing with funeral and weddings and stuff I've never been an emotional person when It's happened right then and their. I feel like a douche for not crying over someones funeral directly. Please note that I DO care I just don't.. well until after it's happened. I needed to vent so that's why I made this journal but as always people are free to disagree with me as they please. I wish I could cry at certain events, but I just feel really weak when I do so.