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I just couldn't think of anything for the title, so, updates and shit. :3 My birthday is tomorrow, but were not celebrating it till sunday just because it's... easier then doing it during the week. I've also been getting into tmnt 2012 I love that show so freaking much and I've been watching it every chance I get. <33 I love all of them so much, even the villains I'm so glad they made shredder a bad ass and not just comic relief. I love the back story between shredder and splinter * I'm aware it was like that in the comic as well* I just can't believe how hard the staff and the animators have been trying so hard to make it so likable again. Ugh, I love it so much I just can't wait for the new episode. I love the fact that they look like teenagers, the original has always made it seem like their in their early twenties not so much in their teens.
Family life has been getting a little bit better, but it still feels like it's always going to be stuck in the same spot. It's like no one is trying to change like me and my mom are. My dad is the same way, never making my brother do anything and being a complaining douche bag that he was even before the arm thing. I get where he's coming from, but it's like he's putting all of this pressure on me and not even getting the chance to let me speak my point of view on how things are. I want to tell him that I've been feeling depressed and I want to talk about the past. Talking about the past will show that my family is trying, but it just... every time I do he just blows it off. I even told him what my sister said, about my mom drinking again is going to be our fault and it upset me a lot because she KNOWS of how I feel about the situation. :sad: I just can't understand why he isn't seeing things from my perspective it's like we went through all of this because my dad didn't want to file divorce papers. As cold as it sounds... it would have been a better situation I think we wouldn't have to worry about mom drinking again and we wouldn't have to worry about the fights and stuff. When I told him what my sister said he said " must of struck a cord" obviously he knows I hardly ever cry, but it hurt so much that he just didn't try and comfort me and instead he said " I want you to show me the message" What the hell is that going to do? He didn't even care when I told him what it was and he just wants to see it? I showed my aunt the message and she finally understands why I'm always the quiet one in the family and I hardly ever show myself in get together's. It just hurts so much. Journal Skin